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Another year older, and maybe even a little wiser, though I have ended the year with more questions than answers. I turned 24 on Christmas Day this year, and I am still shocked at everwhere I have been and everything I have done in those 24 years. It will never cease to amaze me what can all be squeezed into just one year—memories and new understandings fitting in day-to-day life like packing peanuts. Last December I graduated from college with a Bachelor’s degree in English. I moved back home in the beginning of March, went to the San Juan Islands in April, became single in May, went to Dallas, Texas in August for a Mary Kay Convention for the second time, took a road trip to Alabama where I saw friends I made in Italy that I hadn’t seen in two years, and flew to Wyoming for the first time in October to visit my best friend. I even wrote a new song on my guitar about a friend comforting another friend in pain. Recently, my favorite thing has been receiving a VHS player for my birthday. I have three boxes of VHS tapes in my bedroom closet that I was finally able to take down from its dusty shelf. So I spent a lot of the weekend watching old Christmas movies like Annie and Anabelle’s Wish, as well as rediscovering how many Disney movies I have on VHS. If they were unbreakable, I would have been tossing them all in the air to let them fall around me like some would do with money.

I ran my first 5k this year and made a lot of new friends that have become a big part of my life. I have felt the pain of missing loved friends more deeply this year than I have in a long time and discovered that a broken heart truly feels like your insides are cracking in every nook and cranny. I cried a lot more this year than I have in previous years. But that didn’t make it a bad year. I drank too much coffee, spent endless hours listening to music, and slept in too late too often. But I made it through another year with my loan payments up to date and no broken bones or sickness. I’d say I’m doing just fine.

This year has taught me that every single one of us could be better communicators. Especially when it comes to listening. In the midst of wanting to jump in and give our opinion in a conversation, we forget that listening is a significant part of communication. Why should anyone listen to us if we don’t take the time to listen to them? Are we really so prideful that we think what we have to say is more important than what they have to say? You don’t have to agree with the person, but that doesn’t mean you won’t learn or rediscover something. My goal for next year is to also have more conversations that are important. That sounds a little arrogant, but it’s not meant to be. I simply mean that we have too many conversations that are surface-level because that’s what’s comfortable. But there is so much to discuss and discover when we take the extra step to talk about deeper things than the weather. Getting to those topics can be tricky sometimes, so it takes some practice.

I could also use a little more practice when it comes to bravery. For the past two years, I’ve wanted to take my guitar to the nursing home sometime in the week before Christmas and sing Christmas songs to the elderly who may not get many guests if any at all, and maybe even stick around to listen to stories of those willing to talk with me. But I have been afraid to go alone because I have stage freight. I am insecure about my guitar playing abilities since I make mistakes while playing in front of people even though I don’t make mistakes when I’m by myself. But I also have a soft voice, and I don’t know how many would even be able to hear me. I also don’t talk to many people I don’t know. It’s always been hard for me to strike up a conversation with a stranger, even when I want to.

I’m filled to the brim of my glass with love today that I don’t know how to give it out any faster. I’ve been telling a lot of my friends and family the past couple days how much I treasure them, and I find myself in tears most of the time while writing to them. I think that’s partially because of the fact that my monthly gift arrived this morning. But the other half is truly because I feel blessed beyond words. I don’t know what this year would have looked like without them. There are so many hugs yet to give, so many experiences yet to occur, so many people to meet and stories to hear that part of me feels like I’m wasting time sitting here writing this. However, I’m only human, and there are days my glass is tipped over, kind of like how I’d like to flip over the tables of customers that test my patience. But thankfully those days are limited. Emotions for me tend to be overwhelming because they hit me like a train, and sometimes there’s not much I can do to hold them back. I found myself crying quite a bit at work this year, no matter what I told myself to calm down. But I will take those days if it means I can love people more deeply as well.

Only God knows what will become of me by next December. But I’m excited to see where I’m led.

 

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I’ve always had people ask me who my favorite singer is, what my favorite song is. But I don’t pay attention to the singer. They don’t necessarily matter to me. I look at what they sing about, what story or message they are giving. I am not interested in someone singing about getting high up in the club and getting all the girls. I like the songs that sing about holding on, thanking God, and being grateful through the hard times. I like the songs that sing about real love, taking chances, taking time to live life and dancing because you can. I like songs that sing about the brave men and women fighting for our protection, knowing they could die any day and sacrificing time away from their family.

To sum it up, I love songs that sing about the things I value. I value God, family, friends, music, love, happiness, living off the land, animals, not letting money change me into something prideful and greedy. I am here to love people, to give them strength when others tear them down, to remind people of their own priorities and values.

What is it that you value? Are they material things that can be replaced? Are they similar to your priorities?

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Just because you might be unhappy with who won, doesn’t mean that things won’t get better. Even if Obama doesn’t do anything in 4 years, we will be voting again. You have a right to your opinion, but that does NOT mean you should use it to bash and call everyone idiotic who doesn’t agree with your views.

There are hundreds of comments where it is as if the people who are arguing wait to see what people respond with so they can continue to argue. Do you really have NOTHING else to do? Are you really so high up on your throne that you aim to watch them squirm?

You have reasons for what you believe, and so do they. Arguing with people to the point where you bring in unrelated topics won’t get them to change their minds anymore than theirs are changing yours.

I know some people who said Yes to the marriage amendment in Minnesota and comments started blaming their college and mentioning swastikas. Some had pictures, and then commenters started talking about the person’s hair and how he would never get a girlfriend…What??? What does his hair have to do with the topic? And how the hell does the time of HITLER even come CLOSE to this? If you voted No, fine. Vote No. You have your reasons, so do they, even if you think they are stupid.

You are acting childish if you are going to piss and moan over FACEBOOK and on posts. You want to put up a decent argument? Then meet people face to face and have a DISCUSSION over coffee. Yelling at each other just gets people more pissed, and howling at the moon is not healthy of you either.

If you are going to add to the argument, also make sure your FACTS are right. If you want to say that something is or isn’t in the Bible, then make sure you can give a Bible verse or make sure it isn’t in there, otherwise YOU are the one who looks like an idiot because YOU don’t know what you are talking about.

I, for one, am going to spend my time in my dorm today listening to my music and doing homework because the election is OVER. So let’s leave it at that–OVER.

It doesn’t matter what anyone says now. What’s done is done, so go back to your regular routines, talk to people about things that AREN’T about politics, even if they were people who disagreed with you. Politics and religion tear people apart, and it’s not right.

Don’t let this election get in the way of people you love. DO NOT JUDGE THEM, even if they are judging you. You are only bringing yourself down to their level.

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We all believe in something, whether that there is a God, that there is life on other planets, or that dogs are colorblind…but i think we all need to figure out what it is that we believe in so we can find other opinions and new information and maybe get a new perspective on what we think we know…

Feel free to add your own “I believe.” I’d love to hear what you think!

–I believe the sun only sets on those who give up

–i believe that music is a faster cure than conversation

–I believe you never truly feel alive until you do something that is out of your comfort zone

–I believe words hurt as much as stones. Even those who try to tell themselves they don’t affect them

–I believe you should read more books than the amount of movies you watch because true imagination is what you make in your head as you are reading, not what is showed for you on a screen

–I believe that once one side of the light fixture goes out, it’s only a matter of time before the other side goes out, so don’t wait for the light to die. Change it so you are never forced into darkness

–I believe a pillow is the best cuddle buddy when you are alone

–I believe pictures are memories that even the alzehemiers won’t lose

–I believe Disney movies give kids something to believe in

–I believe we cannot be helped if we do not want to help ourselves

–I believe the lazy should make themselves take the stairs, for we all need to be pushed in the right direction sometimes

–I believe God tests us to see what we have learned, if we have learned anything

–I believe people want to be mad at God for their problems because it shifts the focus off of them

–I believe the Sabbath Sunday was created for us as a reminder that we are not immortal, and need to take a break even if we feel we don’t have the time

–I believe we all need to learn our limits, for too many of us overwork and overstress ourselves and it is breaking up our families as well as the happiness that can’t get a hold of us because we dont stop moving

–I believe that even though the clouds may cover the sun for a period of time, we are reminded that the sun will shine again if we have patience

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I used to write songs a lot. A lot of times I’d babble words just looking for a tune and I’d end up saying something and get to thinking, “You know, maybe I could make something out of that.”  As with my stories, I want people to learn something or at least get something out of the things I write. Not everyone will, but even though we are all different, we share some experiences or feelings that come from related topics. Music affects people, and sometimes when you are simply saying words, it doesn’t have the same effect as it does when you add a tune to it, especially when that tune matches  what you are trying to say.

It kinda bugs me when people say they can’t write. Trust me, everyone can write. It may not be good writing, but everyone can write a simple song about a simple experience; you just may not have the patience to write a 500 page book. Not everyone may be able to figure out what should happen in a book or how to get the reader to fall in love with the character, but anyone can write a poem about the things found in a messy room, a letter to a best friend, a journal entry after a bad day.

Write, paint, sew, decorate, mold, carve, dance, sing, act…Whatever you do, create.

“My business is to create.”–P.S. I Love You

Make it your business 🙂

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People underestimate themselves. I am a B student, but I think that might just be because I am the world’s greatest procrastinator… But what if I took the time before hand to correct some simple things that I knew could be better? If I really challenged myself to be an A student and put time and effort into my homework as I do my short stories and books…what might I be?

This past week I wasn’t feeling at all myself. Part of it might have been because of my dogs that died, but I think it went deeper than that. Not even music was doing anything for me…and music has always turned things around for me. Now that school is almost over, I have enough papers and projects due this coming week that would give high schoolers a second thought about going to college. A couple of them are due Monday, but I decided to take today for myself. A friend and I went shopping for a cake and some small presents for a friend’s birthday tomorrow, and when we got back, we chopped off one of the school’s flowers to give to the friend, and I came back and did some Karaoke by myself using Youtube. Then I watched Sherlock Holmes, followed by a romantic comedy called No Reservations. Awesome movies. These couple of things have switched my whole day around. Having the afternoon to myself while my roommates were out doing whatever, was relaxing. I get to sleep in tomorrow, and for the first time in many days, I don’t mind that I have a lot to do tomorrow, because I got to have today.

We push and push ourselves into such pressure all the time, that sometimes we just start feeling like crap, though we don’t always know what from. I don’t know what you’re going through, what you’re worried about, or what may be going wrong in your life right now, but sometimes you just need to stop. Stop trying to run with a pack that has stronger legs, and gives yourselves a rest. Stop trying to impress everyone, and spend some time in your pajamas. Stop with extra-credit stuff for a minute, and take a nap. We all face times that we have to stay on top of our toes and things to stay awake for, but you can’t survive being like that all the time. The moment life gives you a break, don’t pass it up. Remember what it feels like to relax; remember what it feels like to not have to worry about something. Take a hot bath and play some calming piano music. Don’t lose yourself in the hustle, or you will forget who you are and become an uptight mess.

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